same boat

by k
(peace of mind)

my bf of a yr and half moved out 2 weeks ago. first he couldn't figure out if we should still be together so we went on a break. then he finally made up his mind for us to stay together as a couple but we should not live together anymore.

for the entire time we lived together, we got along very good except for the times when he hangs out with the boys til insane hours. otherwise we were perfect for each other. i think daily life things were boring him and he still wants his freedom. with his family's support, he had no problem finding a place to live in a heartbeat.

now we see each other every other day or so, sometimes alone and sometimes with his family. i dont know it this is gonna work for me cuz i feel very rejected and we re moving backwards. i get annoyed when i dont hear from him during the day and begin to wonder who s he with.

i divorced my ex because he cheated on me twice. therefore i have serious trusting and jealousy issues. i want to work on it but dont know how. i ve been told by many that i m very attractive but i feel threaten by almost any woman. i m always worried that my bf ll trade me in just like my ex did. i know these feelings make my behavior hard to put up with most times. my bf s actually tried very hard to reassure me. but i guess it became a repeated problem and he got tired of it.

my bf tells me he loves me and said eventually we ll move back in together again. we both promised we would work on our flaws. with that in mind, i know i should nt feel the things i do now... but i just cant help it.

i just cant understand his actions and dont know how to handle it. i know he s not seeing anyone else but i cant help but to wonder. help me pls.